hey,

well, 2022 just passed for 5 months and now the 6th month just about to began. actually, since January 2022 i've been thru hell, i've been messed up, fucked up, battling with my self, my head and my heart. i've been crying up all night and trying to seems be happy like everything's okay the next morning for about 3 weeks? idk, i dont even wanna remember that fucking nights and days. until i finally talk to my self like "you're done here. it's time for u to pull yourself together and welcoming the brand new days with new you and new perspective!" oh btw, for the past 5 months i never be alone. idk but i think Allah use His power to accompany me by sending me the good people around and beside me. people who loves me, accept and appreciate me as i am, they comfort me, makes me laugh and laugh at my jokes. i'm so happy yet grateful to have that people in my life. they know how to treat the fragile me and never leave me when i'm broke. they told me that i'm worth it, they always remind me to love my self more, they told me that i'm beautiful, i'm smart enough and i deserve better, they told me that i'm precious and they rise me up. 

now. here i am today. the new me who already make a peace with the old me. the new me who can stand by my own feet, who appreciate the moments more, who loves more, give more, and recieve more loves from my circles. i'm happy today, i promise to love my self more until no one can messed me up anymore. i'm survived! and i'm strong than i thought. so dear you who read this blog, remember that you deserve happiness. and when you on the lowest point in your life just remember that Allah will always be your side and He wont leave you alone.

cheers!

ririaprilia

you are doing better than you think you are. you have had more experiences than you can remember, and they were better than you can recall. you've felt more happiness, known more joy, found more inspiration, and have succeeded more times than you are aware of when you're in your most doubtful moments. you've been more accepted than you remember--more appreciated, seen, and validated than you know. more people saw your potential than you realize. they liked you more than you believe. you were more wanted than you think, by friends, by family, by potential lovers who londed for you in ways you probably never would have imagined in the first place. when the people closest to you look at you, they see far more of your greatness than you ever would looking at yourself. it's easy to define ourselves by the empty spaces, the ways in which we lack. yet those are not always gaps within us waiting to be filled, rather, the simple contrast between all we are and all we were never meant to be.

-brianna wiest